Wanna Get Away?

I sure do.

Things are just heavy right now ya know? The simplest conclusion seems to be just run away. Running is so easy. Eventually the weight catches up with you though and is usually in the form of a brick wall. That brick wall is named reality and its a.....you fill in the blank. My soul is restless right now and I cant seem to hold it down long enough to get peace.

So here I am God. Not wanting to look your way but realizing that is all I can do. I am tired and I cant take any more. I want to give the world the middle finger and hide in a hole. But there is a light so much brighter than the darkness. And so I wait to see that light, so we wait to see that light. In the mean time stay by our side.

Done for now folks.

So I am listening to people slide around outside of my apartment on the ice hoping they dont slide into our car. Man I hate ice...and I especially hate people who think they can drive on ice. Although I myself was once that idiot. Worst idea I have ever had in my entire life was to drive home on the snowiest iciest night of last year.

Anyway, we are done with school and that freakin rocks. Now we get to hang out, be on vacation, and be married. Yup, thats right, awesomeness in a can my friends.

I think we may both do some guitar playing and writing over the break which is pretty righteous. I love my woman!

Im still hearing cars on ice and that is not good.

Hey if you havent heard Bon Iver please go listen (Amanda would not endorse him but that is okay because she fell asleep during Prince Caspian tonight).

I feel change, rest, inspiration, and awesomeness in the air. Hope you guys feel it too this holiday season. See you soon!

Finals....lame

Study study! I took a picture of my lovely wife but she gave me the look of death so I decided posting it may get me into some serious trouble. F you finals! We are almost done though. And that pretty much rocks. I just finished writing an 8ish page paper that pretty much owns. I still have to go back and make sure I have cited everything correctly but I need Amanda's help with that junk because I am no good at it.

I am looking forward to busting out of Panera, putting on my PJ's, and enjoying a nice cold Blue Moon when we get home tonight.

Peace.

Ahhh the days ahead

What will they bring? More importantly, what do we want to do with them?

Those two questions have been floating around in the Mrs' and I's head for the past month or so. I dont know, something about today kind of clarified some of the fog for me. We are both ready for something different, something new, someplace new, something crazy. Some of you may stop me there and say "well, you just got married young. Is that not enough?" It totally is enough in the sense that we are both complete people now...and I think through that we are realizing we want to live out some dreams. We want to go and be able to go. We want to try some new things, which for me means maybe looking at a little different of career path for now. I am definitely getting tired of the business side of music. Part of that has to do with the fact that a lot of what I do requires me to wear both hats. I just want to play to play! Anyway, so we are pondering and praying and seeking what our next move is going to be. I am so excited to see where our life together takes us. In fear of writing a novel tonight (my head is very full) I shall end on that note. More to come as we figure this whole life thing out.

"I Have Been in The Darkness"

I have been in the darkness
Stumbling in a rush to find just a hint of light
But for the moment none was there
For the moment I was stuck
For a moment I was blind

I have been in the deepest valley
With no path back to the top
Of the mountain I once stood on
And Called out your name only to hear
My Voice echo on the walls

I Have been on my knees
With my face pressed against the floor
Just waiting for you to move
Waiting for you to pick me up
And tell me its over
When is it over? When is it over?

But Here I am
Knowing that youre near me
Knowing that you will heal these open wounds
And restore what once was there before

The Wheels on the bus

Yeahhhhhh thats right. On the bus tonight which is fun because I havent been on a bus in a while. Reminds me of how much I enjoy being on the road. Although now that I have such an amazing and beautiful wife it is a lot less fun to be away from home. In a perfect world she would get to go with me wherever I went. Maybe if I learn how to play guitar like John Mayer we can make that happen.

Anyway, the past couple of weeks have been awesome. Amanda and I have been so close and loving every minute we have had together. We were extremly excited to be able to do a little shopping this month for clothes and a variety of random items. For those of you who arent married you may think this sounds like no big deal but for those of you who are you can do a little happy dance/rejoice with us :) Just a really great month and we are looking forward to the holiday season.

I recently finished Rob Bell's latest book titled Jesus Wants to Save Christians. I tell ya, I dont deserve a relationship with my Creator or wisdom, or peace, or any of the other things He gives to me. I am so off of the mark half of the time it is to even funny. But for some reason God still speaks to me. This book was such a cool reminder of how God always hears my cry. Over and over throughout the Word you find God hearing the cries of His people. Such an amazing thing is it not? None the less we still find a way to turn our backs before we cry out again. And so the circle goes! I feel like after a long year, God is really drawing me back to His heart though and I am so thankful. Looking back, it is kind of like we weren't "spiritual" this year, and I say we because I think my wife would agree. We weren't spiritual but we were desperate for God. A very fine line to walk ya know? Really I want a balance of the two now. Being on one side or the other sucks. If you are to a point in your life that you are so desperate for God that all you can do is weep on your knees, that usually means life is pretty much in pieces and if you are super spiritual life is just fake. So I am ready for some balance again. I want to be desperate but with a sense of discipline to my faith. That has been my heart this week. My heart has really been broken for the poor and the widow again as well, another thing Bell's latest book delves into. Not really sure what God is preparing our hearts for but I know Amanda and I are extremely excited about what our future holds.

Sorry for the long and kind of rambling post...although most of my posts are like that. I hope you all know you are loved and that over the holiday season we get to catch up with you and hang and just freaking enjoy life. Till then, us lipscombs will party without you.